This past week the song “Let it all Out” by Relient K has been stuck in my head. A mixture of emotions as another school year begins has been flooding through me all week. While I am excited to get started with another semester several realities have begun hitting home. The next year will see several changes for my life. I’ve been coming to terms with this fact in the past three weeks.
People who I think (or thought) were my friends will barely be acquaintances next year. I have begun to assess the friendships where I have invested. I have come to recognize more than one friendship that is fading or has faded out completely just in the time I have been here. While this saddens me, it as just as much the other parties choice to stop maintaining contact as it has been anything else.
I’m now beginning to make choices that will shape the future of my life. I will be applying to Ph.D. programs over the next few months. Where I end up going will truly shape who I am for the rest of my life. That means where I go is a major decision. It is a lot to digest at once honestly, between departmental concerns and geographical offerings there is a lot to be considered.
I have also begun working as the Assistant Debate Coach. This is the closest I have worked with students on the collegiate level. My excitement for the upcoming season can hardly be contained. We have the opportunity to make a big splash in collegiate debate and I have high hopes for our team. It’s going to be a truly great experience getting to work with the brilliant students on our debate team.
This semester also will host two conferences I am presenting at. I feel completely inadequate to present at either. It is truly an honor to have been selected to present at both. One is a major conference for my educational endeavors and the other is a local conference for my professional endeavors. The experience will be unmatched by anything else I do this semester I believe. The opportunity to build connections in both settings will be unparalleled.
November will mark our second year for the Arkansas State Disc Golf Team to qualify for the National Collegiate Disc Golf Tournament. We have high hopes for this year and I believe we can accomplish them. We will be working hard to ensure that we are ready for November to be able to take on the task of qualifying for the National tournament.
As I have been considering all of these things one seminal thought has come to my mind and it comes from Philippians 4. Paul says: “11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.”
In all of the anxiety, expectation and excitement of this upcoming year I have and will be content regardless of the circumstances. Whether friendships continue, I am accepted to the Ph.D. program of my preference or our team is successful I will be content regardless. I want to see friendships grow, I want to see each of these things comes to pass but if they do not, I will be content. I have learned that if something isn’t meant to be it’s for a greater purpose and I am excited to see what that may be.